They say I'm crazy

As some of you know I'm planning on a home birth with this wonderful baby.  5 years ago if you would have told me I was going to have a Midwife and deliver at home with no epidural I would have laughed in your face. But, there is a story and an explanation of why I made this decision.
 Fast forward to 4 years ago... I was pregnant with my Kyn. I had little to NO education on child birth. I went into labor (water broke at home) I PUKED everywhere. The combination of anxiety and the pain killer I was given put my nerves on overload. Needless to say, I puked multiple times on the way to the hospital. I also threw up while I was there A LOT. I was given an epidural. At first it was nice and I was able to relax. Then reality set in, my body stopped responding to the drugs and I started to feel EVERYTHING. I was completely unprepared. After 18 hours of contractions, being completely ignored by the nurses, feeling worthless, and having zero control my lil Kynlee was FINALLY born with the biggest hematoma the Doctor had ever seen. I'm quite confident there was a void in the communication the Nurses were giving my Doctor, otherwise He would have been there sooner. My beautiful baby girl ended up in the NICU for 5 days. The only positive experience from the hospital was the NICU(besides getting to meet my baby of course).
So, call me crazy!!! I don't care because it took me 4 WHOLE years to consider pregnancy again after that traumatic experience. I told myself if I were blessed with another baby I would need to go a COMPLETEY different route. That's when I started researching options. Everything came down to having a Midwife. Through the help of a friend I met Janae. Let me tell you, when I walked into her home for the consultation I felt at peace. I could actually hear my spirit telling me "you're safe." Right then and there I knew, this is what I need. I was given any/all resources I asked for. I was told Hypnobabies would help me control my anxiety and prepare me for my home delivery journey. Boy oh boy has it helped immensely. I am so excited and confident for this baby to come. I'm amazed at the complete 360 my brain has turned. I'm actually looking forward to my "birthing time." Not only has my anxiety been more manageable, but I now have the ability to control EVERYTHING I feel.

Apparently I used to BLOG

According to my research I stopped blogging in 2013.  I have no idea why!  But I am so glad I had the brilliant idea years ago, because some of the pictures I blogged about I thought I had lost forever when the "back up drive" with ALL of my memories was FRIED!  Anyway, I'm back and there are some exciting things going on in our lives right now!  I will try to be better at updating.  Especially considering in less than 2 months we will be welcoming our second Princess. 

Life as we know it!

Can't believe it has been 5 years since we said "I DO." Seems like just yesterday, and a long time ago at the same time. We have gone through some interesting times in 5 years, but they are all out weighed by the joys. And Best of all, is the baby girl we now have in our family. She is our world and has melted our hearts. She has her Dad wrapped around her finger, and she's my favorite Pal. Kyle and I have been working so hard to achieve our goal of being home owners. But if anyone knows Kyle, it can't just be a house. It has to be THE HOUSE. It may be a little longer than I had anticipated, but I guess it will all be worth it when I see that we didn't settle, and we waited it out until PERFECTION was achievable. I'm not a patient person, so it has been a BIG battle for me. I'm working on it. Every night when I get home I think about how lucky I am to have a healthy family. I would trade ANYTHING for the happiness of my family. In the end, your family is what you have left. I don't like regret, and I have definitely been living a life lately where I can honestly say "I don't have regrets." We have become almost completely DEBT FREE. Once we pay off Kyle's truck (in a few months) we will have ZERO debt. That my friends is one of the best feelings ever. Anyway, Happy 5 years to Kyle Vaughan!

Kynlee turns 1

Today my little Princess turned 1 year old.  It's crazy how fast time flies.  Especially when you have a little precious one that you don't want to grow up too fast!  She is such a sweetheart.  And an amazing blessing.  She had a fantastic birthda party.  Many family and friends were there.  I would say I may have over done it.  But she is worth every second.  As for STATS, she has 3 teeth now.  She refuses to take any steps.  She is a rather cautious baby.  That, she DID NOT get from me.  Must be a trait from Kyle.  Either way, she crawls extremely fast and I have a hard time keeping up with her.  She does not hold still for anything.  She is still waking up at night, but its getting better.  She still enjoys sweet potatoes and loves fruit.  There is no doubt that she LOVES the water.  I think she has fins or something.  She is quite the chatter box and has a short temper :-).  She has a giggle that can melt your heart.  She still has chubby cheeks and I think she will for awhile.  Everyday she learns something new and teeaches me something too.  I'm seriously so in love with this little diaper diva!!

The day she turned 1

Blowing kisses

Her "vintage" birthday outfit

Almost 1

Kynlee is growing fast.  She celebrated her 11 month birthday on March 30th.  She now has 2 teeth.  She is quite proud of them.  She didn't show any sign of teeth until 10.5 months, and finally they cut through.  She is crawling like Jack Jack and climbing like a monkey.  She can stand on her own for long periods at a time but she refuses to take any steps.  Funny lil girl.  Secretly, I'm okay with her taking her time, I can barely keep up with her now.  She is the love of our lives and we enjoy each day with her.  As for Kyle and I, we are working very hard towards being home owners.  I'm keeping positive, and if we continue to stay on track we will be HOMEWARD bound by the end of the year.  YAY!!!

We celebrated Easter in St. George.  It was pretty fun.  Kynlee did well in the Easter egg hunt.  She got the $20 golden egg.  We also decorated eggs.  It was an adventure to say the least!

SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH THOSE EYES

HER OUTFIT! SHE WON THE BOW AND ONESIE!!!

HER FIRST EASTER BASKET AND THEN..... SHE WOKE UP

I DID EXIST.  I DON'T EVER HAVE PICS OF ME! SO HERE'S ONE

KYN WITH HER BOYFRIEND :-) AND THE GOLDEN EGG

FINALLY A TOOFA

Kynlee has finally cut a tooth! It is the cutest little toofa I have ever seen.  At 10 months and 20 days I think she is pretty excited to finally not be a gummer any more.  YAY for Kyn!

10 months old

Kynlee is FINALLY showing signs of a tooth.  Just one, and its not out yet, BUT it is on it's way.  She is getting SO fast at crawling.  And boy oh boy watch out for her in her walker.  She is learning to drive better in reverse now and she is FAST!  My Mom and Dad were in town for the ten month celebration.  We went to the park and to Barnes and Noble.  Of course Grandma bought her a book.  :-)   Kynlee is seriously the highlight of my day.  I don't mind 5 hours of sleep, because when I see her smiling eyes it makes it all worth it.  Happy 10 months Kynamarie

9 months old

Kynlee turned 9 months old on Jan 30th. I had some fun with the good ol' canon rebel.  She truly is so fun to photograph.  She is getting so big and is quite the chatter box.  I love every minute with my Munchkyn.  Even the 12am, 3am, and 6 am wake up calls every night.